Saturday, December 29, 2012

What+What =Love?

What is the true meaning of love? Is there honestly one TRUE definition for such a strong and meaningful word? There are so many people who say that they are in love, but everyone only deals with so much. Did I lose you?  For example: some people will stay with that person after they cheat, hit or do them wrong. Others will leave with the quickness. Some have plans for their future, and if you're not on the same page; then they're gone. Some will stick with the one they love no matter what hard time they are going through, because they love them and want to make it work. I could go on and on with many different situations, but in the end whose love is really LOVE, and whose is a hindered insecurity. I know I told a couple of ex's that I loved them, but as soon as they cheated or lied I was out! (Give or take a few months, but who's counting) Or played the game of you cheated, well so can I. I still talked to other guys, but as friends. The crazy part is that the other guys were labeled as friends because if I said I loved someone that meant no other guy could compare to him, and I always made it known that I was in a relationship, they just didn't care. Does that still mean I was in love? After my last boyfriend...I say no. My previous ex's were just titles. I couldn't picture myself with them for the rest of my life. I couldn't see us having kids together or anything. I never felt as though they were my partner, but my last boyfriend meant everything too me.  After all the stress and drama from previous relationships I was ready for a break, and had been on one for a little over a year. I moved back home, went back to church, work, school and re-connected with old friends. I was not even thinking of a relationship. Until I met back up with my middle school crush. It's like I fell and never stopped tumbling and trust.... he was there all the way..........I looked forward to being his love ,partner, wife and mother of his child. At that moment everything was perfect. He made me feel safe, and I trusted him. I was no longer worried about having a guy with everything on my list. He took care of me when I was sick, called just to check on me...during his break, my break, before I went to work and when I got off, before I went to sleep, when I woke up................ we were either texting or on the phone. Lol even if we were in the same area. He knows how to love me and I knew he was sincere with it. You can't fake a love like that. He loves me for who I am, the way I looked when I woke up in the morning. Hoop shorts a t-shirt or any of his clothes...doesn't matter. It was one the best feelings that I've ever had in my life and I never want to forget it. Even when we had our battles I knew he would never intentionally do anything to hurt me. I don't even count other relationships after being with him, because they don't measure up to what he gave me. I have his back and he was there for me no matter what. We had our battles with others in our relationship and we won every war. No matter what, everyone  knew he was mine and I was his. Even though we are no longer together, our feelings still remain the same. We didn't end on bad terms, we just decided not to ruin a better relationship. Our friendship.

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