What makes a better future?

Have you ever just sat down to think about what the world is coming to? Or maybe compare how times are different from way back, does it seem better? Depending on how you look at it, they had it so much harder, but their values were a lot more important. A lot of people, not just blacks, had to work 10x as hard just to get the simple things that we seem to forget about. Education, food, shelter, work....RESPECT. Such a strong word, but everyone seems to have different views on what it truly represents.

True to Myself

I believe that everyone should know their worth. Realize that there's a reason and a great purpose that you are on the face of this earth. I say this because I know and understand that if you love someone so much you tend to de-value yourself to give them what they need. Instead, take the time to realize that there was a great reason that they approached or interacted with you in the first place. Never allow people to tear you down just so that they may feel better. Not a friend, partner, family member etc.. believe me when I say, the longer you allow it to go on, the more it will wear you down. Take time to yourself by doing something that you love. Like listening to music, writing, anything that makes YOU happy. Take the time to think about what you want in life. Make a list of the steps you need to do to get there...and get started!!! It's a great thing to have friends that you can grow with and a partner to one day grow old with and maybe start a family...but it's even better to make sure you evolve into the person that you want to become. Never take advantage of your potential and don't think that what your good at is less important just because someone else doesn't agree with it.

Visin in Plainsight (quote)

Having a new found vision of what life is. It's what makes me laugh. To far focused to be stuck in the past.

What+What =Love?

What is the true meaning of love? Is there honestly one TRUE definition for such a strong and meaningful word? There are so many people who say that they are in love, but everyone only deals with so much. Did I lose you?  For example: some people will stay with that person after they cheat, hit or do them wrong. Others will leave with the quickness. Some have plans for their future, and if you're not on the same page; then they're gone. Some will stick with the one they love no matter what hard time they are going through, because they love them and want to make it work. I could go on and on with many different situations, but in the end whose love is really LOVE, and whose is a hindered insecurity. I know I told a couple of ex's that I loved them, but as soon as they cheated or lied I was out! (Give or take a few months, but who's counting) Or played the game of you cheated, well so can I. I still talked to other guys, but as friends. The crazy part is that the other guys were labeled as friends because if I said I loved someone that meant no other guy could compare to him, and I always made it known that I was in a relationship, they just didn't care. Does that still mean I was in love? After my last boyfriend...I say no. My previous ex's were just titles. I couldn't picture myself with them for the rest of my life. I couldn't see us having kids together or anything. I never felt as though they were my partner, but my last boyfriend meant everything too me.  After all the stress and drama from previous relationships I was ready for a break, and had been on one for a little over a year. I moved back home, went back to church, work, school and re-connected with old friends. I was not even thinking of a relationship. Until I met back up with my middle school crush. It's like I fell and never stopped tumbling and trust.... he was there all the way..........I looked forward to being his love ,partner, wife and mother of his child. At that moment everything was perfect. He made me feel safe, and I trusted him. I was no longer worried about having a guy with everything on my list. He took care of me when I was sick, called just to check on me...during his break, my break, before I went to work and when I got off, before I went to sleep, when I woke up................ we were either texting or on the phone. Lol even if we were in the same area. He knows how to love me and I knew he was sincere with it. You can't fake a love like that. He loves me for who I am, the way I looked when I woke up in the morning. Hoop shorts a t-shirt or any of his clothes...doesn't matter. It was one the best feelings that I've ever had in my life and I never want to forget it. Even when we had our battles I knew he would never intentionally do anything to hurt me. I don't even count other relationships after being with him, because they don't measure up to what he gave me. I have his back and he was there for me no matter what. We had our battles with others in our relationship and we won every war. No matter what, everyone  knew he was mine and I was his. Even though we are no longer together, our feelings still remain the same. We didn't end on bad terms, we just decided not to ruin a better relationship. Our friendship.